Monday, December 16, 2013

Ever feel like you are just making excuses?

Today was weigh in day at Curves....Man did I NOT want to get out of bed....I so badly wanted to just go back to sleep under my warm blanket for the 60 extra minutes I could get....but I didn't!

Once again stepping on the scale my weight was up...I wasn't surprised by is why:

  1. I hadn't worked out in over a week....something like 13 days to be exact
  2. It is my time of the month...the oh so fun 10 days of crazy hormones and water retention
  3. Sinus infection...I have been since (which is why I didn't work out) and am still on antibiotics.
  4. Final exam stress...this one has been a doozy despite the fact that I have done really well on all of my exams.
So I look at this list....and I UNDERSTAND why my weight is up....but I feel like I am making an excuse. I am excusing the choices I made and what I ate and what I did or didn't do. It doesn't feel like I am genuinely taking my lumps over my failure. My goal for the last four months was to get out of the 270's. I wanted to weigh 269.?? by December 27th. That would put me down 60 pounds, forty pounds shy of the 100 I WANTED to lose when I made my goal on my surgery day. I don't consider it an over all failure that I won't make 100, 60 pounds is still pretty good. What I do consider a failure is that fact that I have been within 5 pounds of my goal for MONTHS!!!!!!

I can't get past the 60 pound mark to save my life!!!!

I am frustrated....and I don't know what to do shy of living on protein shakes...I am sure I will figure it out but in this hormone induces pity party of one I am frustrated, sad, and stressed. Stressed that no matter what I do I will still be this fat next December.

I need to snap out of it....I start my new job tomorrow and the rest of my life is falling into place...This had got to stop and I need to stop making excuses. I need to decide that succeeding is MORE important then the piece of fudge. Or that I AM important enough to take the time to go to the gym even if that means going to bed early (which wouldn't be a bad idea over all).

Over the next few days I am going to be coming up with my new goal post-it...Hope I can get myself into a better frame of mind!

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Radio Silence & Weeks 48-50 Weigh in!

Weigh in for week 48
Beginning Weight (12/20/2012)- 330.6

Last Week’s Weight – 275.8

Today’s Weight – 275.0

Total Weight Loss – 55.6

Weigh in for week 49
Beginning Weight (12/20/2012)- 330.6

Last Week’s Weight – 275.0

Today’s Weight – 277.8

Total Weight Loss – 52.8

Weigh in for week 50
Beginning Weight (12/20/2012)- 330.6

Last Week’s Weight – 277.8

Today’s Weight – 275.6

Total Weight Loss – 55 you can see....not making very good progress!

Granted I have gotten the weight off my little gaining week...

Radio Silence

Ok, so I haven't been around much lately...I have a VERY good reason...I have been studying for finals week at school. This entail three exams BEFORE finals and four exams the week of final (This on Monday, two on Tuesday and one today)

Thank goodness that is over!

I went into this semester hoping to get B's. That isn't a great grade as far as I am concerned but it would keep me about the level I need for Latin Honors.

Not all my grades are official but at this point I got an A in International Marketing and an A- in Income Tax. The other two classes are up in the air. For Financial Accounting and Report II I could get a B+ IF I get a score better then 96%....To keep my B I need to get a 55% so I have no idea...My last  class Intro to Operational Management....I have NO clue. The way he grades things and the way he sets his "Scale" are I could end up with everywhere from a A- to a B....

I have to admit...I kinda hate that my college utilized the +/- system....They are given different values as far as computing your GPA goes....I just with an A were and A and a B were a B....that would be nice!!!

Anyways...I am starting my new job on Tuesday....this is kinda terrifying...I haven't had a job in 4 years!

I will do my best to stay around more....but if nothing else I will be back on Wednesday!

Monday, December 2, 2013

Curves Complete Weigh in

Cuz this double weigh in stuff isn't

November 16th - 280.0 (Initial Weight)
November 23rd - 276.4
December 2nd - 276.6

I gained .2 ... Not horrible over Turkey Day...granted that wasn't my biggest was my birthday on Saturday....YAY for being 29!!!...Between the popcorn (twice) and the ice cream and the eating was a GREAT birthday but not so hot on the diet part.

We decorated the Christmas tree yesterday....That process was kinda...icky...

When we pulled the box from the shed it has a gap and that forced me to open it while still out side...I am glad that I did...inside I found a next and in that a mummified was N A S T Y!!!!

So bleach water and febreze later...and it only slightly smells like an old lady's house.

Shameless excuse to use a photo of my babies!!!
We need to hunt out that garland and various other decorations but....I am glad the tree is up! back on the diet wagon...going to survive the next four weeks....Bandiversary is coming!!!