H O L Y C R A P ! ! ! ! !

I have a job interview on Friday!

I have not been on an interview since April of 2007!....That is like 6.5 years!

I haven't had a job since January of 2010!

I have been happily playing the role of stay at home mom and full time student for the last three years, but the time in my school career for an internship has arrived!

I am interviewing at Edward Jones for their tax hotline internship...I have also signed up to interview for the RDP...It is their full time positions for recent college graduates...I really really hope I get both!

For the first time in 39 weeks...

I have missed a weigh in....

As you know I typically weigh in on Wednesdays...

Well this Wednesday, I had to be up by 5 and out of the house by 6:30am.

I had to take the GMAT

The GMAT is the Graduate Management Aptitude Test. It is the standard entrance exam when you are applying to graduate school. At my particular school they don't have a requirement per se...but they have this "discovery" they quote. It states that they have found that people who get less then 500 in total score and less then a 30 in the quantitative section tend to struggle or fail to pass the MAcc progam.

After all the stress and studying...I pulled off a 580 and a 39 respectively. While those scored only put me in the 55th percentile (I scored higher then 55% of all people that have taken this exam in the last 5 years) I am happy with it. People that take the GMAT aren't like the general public that take the ACT/SAT.  They actually WANT to get a good grade to accomplish something..

So anyways...between all of this test stuff I forgot to step on the scale.

Since my weight fluctuates SO drastically from day to day I am just going to wait until next Wednesday to weigh in...

Oh, and I got the all clear to "try" running again...I shall keep you posted!

New workout plan...

So I have taken the advice of many of you who read my humble blog and one of my medical professional friends...

I have taken up rowing as my exercise of choice...

I bought a personal/home row machine

It is actually pretty nice for $120.

Boy does it make my arms and shoulders sore though!

It will be nice to be sore while I am STRESSING over the week from hell

It is also nice to get to work out again. This beautiful machine puts ZERO pressure on my wounded hip and I even get a little sweaty.

They have row machines at school...I plan on taking advantage of them as well!

We shall see how this goes!

Just a little late...

Beginning Weight (12/20/2012)- 330.6

Last Week’s Weight – 274.2

Today’s Weight – 275

Total Weight Loss – 55.6

I wasn't late weighing in...I am late in signing in...

Life has been stressful.

Nursing an injury sucks emotionally for me. I don't know how it affects anyone else, but I get down. I get mad at myself and at my body. I mean, here I am trying to better my life...I am trying to get into shape and my body won't let me...When I get emotional I eat. It isn't that I eat a lot, but I start craving things I shouldn't...like pasta!

So I am back on track and I have a new plan...

Onwards!

Shitty shitty shitty day...

Well today has kinda been crap

As if you didn't get that from the title...

So, here is the explanation:

1) I love running...but I no longer get to do that. At the very least not for the next week. Apparently this "muscle" pain I have been trying to work though for the last five days is actually inflammation in the bursae sac that is under the tendon on the out side of my hip. It is PISSED! The only time it doesn't hurt is when I am running but about an hour after I can barely walk. It even hurts to sleep on it...

I have been given the following

• No impact exercise...this includes walking, jogging, and elliptical machines.
• Stretch the area 6-9 times a day
• Ice the area 6-9 times a day following stretching.
• Taking anti-inflammatory medication as often as directed on bottle.

Basically I can lift weights as long as I am sitting or laying down. So that is going to put a damper on things

2)Not being able to work out put me in a bad mood...

3)My poor baby girl lost her tap shoes tonight...this is only on this list because it makes me sad to punish her. She doesn't know that. She thinks that I enjoy being mad at her I think. I get that she is only 6 but at some point she needs to be more aware of that fact that stuff cost money...Luckily for her her dance teacher had found them and gave them too us. By this point however, she had lost the privilege of going to dance class, she lost movie time, and even had to go to bed without a bed time snack. I am just so mean!

I just can't get over this whole injury thing...every time I try and exercise with any level of dedication I get hurt and have to stop. I don't want to stop...I am going to but I do it under protest.

I guess I will just have to focus on keeping my nutrition on point and that will have to make up for it!

Weekly Weigh-in

Beginning Weight (12/20/2012)- 330.6

Last Week’s Weight – 276.4

Today’s Weight – 274.2

Total Weight Loss – 56.4

Thank god!

It is going in the right direction.

I have been running everyday...except Monday....I have to admit I like the treadmill....I honestly didn't think that I would....I mean fat people don't run right?

Taken in the locker room @ UMSL

And I mean you have to be pretty determined to get your workouts in if you weigh 275 pounds and will still wear workout gear that is made up of mostly spandex....I have tried to run in less "fitted" clothes but that doesn't work...All my excess skin and remaining chub rub and make things sore...and I get so hot with a lose shirt over the above...so skin tight Spandex it is!

I think I am getting closer to having my food under control, with the exception of Sunday my eating was on point (Dang you gluten free tarts!) . I don't focus on calories as much as making sure I get my protein and don't go over my carbs....I figure if those two things are on point then I am good! If I can pull that off for around 1200 calories that is a BONUS!

Well, I am sure I can think of many things to post, but I won't...lol

Day 2 recap...yeah we can go with that

Day 2 wasn't as great at Day 1....

That is NOT to say that it was horrible!

Food was as follows: (Goal / Actual)
Calories: 1200 / 1488
Protein - 100 / 95
Carbohydrates -30 / 59 (23 of which were 3/4 cup of grapes)
Fat - 96
Fiber - 14
Sugar - 10 / 29 (20 of which came from 3/4 cup of grapes)

Calories burn -2850 / 3609

I was very proud of myself...I got my run in yesterday between classes. I have to admit the treadmills at the school gym were a bit weird but they got the job done just fine. In fact it was kinda fun...

Got mocked by some preppy thin girl who was using the machine just down from me.

I never let these people bother me...apparently I bother them by existing since only skinny people should be in the gym but still....I hate people like this. I am a hugely confident person. I like me just fine. I don't really give a crap what some skinny chicka with a chip on her shoulder thinks...but there are other people in the world. Other overweight women and men who want to change their lives. All they need is the access and maybe even a little motivation to just stick to it. If the person this girl had spoken to the way she did to me, wasn't me, she could have shamed her into leaving. That is such a shame.

Anyways...on to better days!

Day 2 - Back on Track

My food was AWESOME yesterday...

Calories - 1069
Protein - 99
Carbs - 19
Fiber - 5
Sugar - 10

I hit all of my numbers....

well I guess technically I missed my protein...my surgeon wants 100 grams. I missed by 1!

I even got in a run yesterday. I did Week 1 Day 1 of the C25K program....Got all nice an sweaty!

Today is going to be a crazy day...I have school until 3:15 then I have "Accounting Networking Night" at my college. It is an opportunity to meet a bunch of recruiters from firms around Saint Louis. I am not looking for work yet, but perhaps an offer will come my way that I can't resist....Say 55K a year + paying for my masters? I might not be able to say no to that!

Anyways....I was trying to figure out how I was going to get my workout in today...Then I remembered, becasue I am an idiot...that I have access to the Rec Center on my college campus...and I have a 1:45 break between classes....10 minutes to walk there....30 minutes of jogging...10 minutes for a shower...10 minutes for walking..that still leaves 45 minutes to eat my lunch! Much more productive then reading a book in my car....

Question out there for anyone who wants to answer it....

Do you think eating fruit (ie grapes) should discourage you when your carbs are high?

Week 36 Check In

Beginning Weight (12/20/2012)- 330.6

Last Week’s Weight – 275.2

Today’s Weight – 276.4

Total Weight Loss – 54.2

Well...not a shock....

Doesn't mean that it is good....or that I am making an excuse.

Merely wasn't a surprise.

I am going to get back on track.

Game Plan:

• Work out 30 minutes a day...no matter what!
• Spending 30 minutes a day being uncomfortable or a lifetime of being obese.
• Eat lots of protein.
• My surgeon wants 100g a day.
• Keep carbohydrates to a minimum
• I still don't know if this counts fruit. No one can ever seem to answer that question. My 3/4 cup of grapes is 23 grams of carbs....so hmmmm...
• Aim for 1200 calories a day
• I have almost never hit this in the past...I am going to strive harder to do it.

Well that is my game plan...we will have to see if it works this up coming week.

I am not longer going to settle for good enough...I have these motivation posters like the one below

I hate them lately...I mean I appreciate the thought...but this isn't good enough any more. I wanted to be down 100 pounds by my band-versary and at the rate I am losing I won't hit my goal...skating by isn't good enough for me any more...

Only my best is good enough!

Short little hello!

Hello!

I have had a good week with how I feel about myself!

I went though my closet and threw away (read at took to Goodwill) all my "Mumu". Most of my clothes were size 26w and I am not a 20w. So I was swimming in most of them.

My eating.....was TERRIBLE!

I am up about a pound I would guess. That isn't great but since weigh in day is tomorrow the best thing I can do is get myself on back on track now for next week. I am going to try to come up with something that I know that I want more then what ever I am craving at the moment.

I will post more tomorrow once I have weighed in!

Good luck and carry on!