Check in and catch up

I have had a post open and have been working on it for the better part of a week...oh boy...I just can't focus it seems on this whole writing thing....Anywho...lets see how far we get on this one...

I recently bought a new diet buddy...His name is Tom...

He is a jawbone UP24 band. Technically his name is "Jennifer UP Band" but that was before I found out that I couldn't rename my band after I set up my account. So I don't really care what the app says...his name is Tom.

Tom is annoying and is a master of guilt trips...I have no idea what I would do without him in my life.

He vibrates at me when I have been inactive too long...he tells me when it is time to start getting ready for bed so that I can get in bed by 10:30pm. It vibrates at me when it is time to get up...using a smart alarm that goes off during a 20 minutes window when I am in light sleep...it is AWESOME!

He also makes me feel like crap when he send me messages like "I see you have only taken 4,568 steps to day that is only 46% of your goal. You will miss your goal by only 5432. Perhaps tomorrow you can be more active."...See makes you feel like crap!

I weigh in tomorrow so lets see it Tom has helped me at all!

Today, I love my jiggly wiggle bits!

Getting ready to take a shower this morning...standing naked in the bathroom I typically find myself avoiding looking in the mirror at all cost.

This is simply because there is this mean, thin girl that lives in my head that think I suck. That I am ulgy, fat, and worthless. 

I don't like her!

She is mean...she just sit up there and makes me feel like crap all the while she doesn't do anything. She doesn't even clean up my house or help cook meals or anything...I mean she doesn't even break out a stipper pole...she is useless...yet I let her make me feel like crap.

Today my shower started off differently. I looked in the mirror and simply ignored the bitch in my head. Stepping out and getting dressed I put on this dress that my daughter made me buy. It is tan and black zebra print...She LOVES tacky animal print. What I love about the dress is that it is an XL...not a 1X and XL from the normal size people department. 

Wouldn't you know it...I feel AMAZING in this dress...It is just a simple dress...nothing too special about it...but still!

Had to take photo to remember how great about myself I feel!

Wore my hair all curly....

I let my wiggly jiggly bat wings hang out...

I marveled at how much smaller my fat belly overhang is now...

At how much smaller my hips are...

At the muscle definition that I am getting in my arms and legs despite the loose skin...

You know what I did...I crammed an imaginary donut into that skinny bitch's face (her name is Brittany in case you were wondering ) and watched her writhe in pain from the gluten!...

Ok, now I am worrying about my sanity!

Perhaps I should call it a night and hope that my new found appreciation for my wiggles and jiggles last though the night!

Post 2 of 2 in the same day (The Rant)!

I didn't want to post my philosophical rants along with my weigh in. There is just something...weird about that for me...Don't know why...Call it a quirk!

Tomorrow my daughter has a birthday party to go to. It is a party for her cousin. My beautiful niece turned 6 today. She is having a spa party for some friends and my daughter is included.

The only problem is that L is Gluten Free...her friend's parent typically make arrangements for her so that she can participate. However, my family is clueless. My mother in law on more than one occasion has given L stuff she shouldn't and most of the time they try and make me feel like I and the one that is being ridiculous when I call them out over it.

*Disclaimer: Family if you are reading this and think that I am reading the situation wrong feel free to contact me in a civilized fashion and we can discuss it. If I get an irate phone call it won't end well for either of us. This blog is about me...not you!

My sister in law (not the one having the party) doesn't eat gluten and everyone seems to respect this, but not when it involves L and me. It is flat out STUPID.

Anyways, I purchased gluten free bread (wasn't feeling up to digging out the bread maker) and made L some pb&j finger sandwiches and made a gluten free chocolate chip cookie since my niece doesn't like cake and will be having a cookie cake at her party. I want her to have fun but eating gluten royally f-ups  her entire day/week/month/life!

We don't have Celiacs...L's best friend does...but we don't...we have gluten intolerance...that means we are ALLERGIC to it...and hence shouldn't eat it...It won't kill us, but it still hurts us.

After the party she is going to spend the night at her besty's house...I can take a deep breath once she goes over there. A and her mom both have Celiacs which means they have a gluten free house. It is the same reason why T feels comfortable bringing her daughter over to my house. It is a safe zone. I don't have to worry about people knowing that pretzels do in fact have gluten (which is something I have had to explain to family before). It is....nice!

Don't get me wrong I love my friends they try their best and I appreciate it!...It is my family that drives me nuts...It isn't even MY family it is my HUSBAND's family. I love them but they drive me crazy!

Gahhh!

Post 1 of 2 in the same day!

Went on vacation...

According to my scale I gained 6 pounds...Managed to get 4 of them off within two days of coming home....Down another pound from yesterday to today...I knew this would happen...Wasn't surprised. I am pretty sure that by the time Wednesday comes around I will be back where I was. Kinda hate the random gains you can have even when you are expecting them...

Beginning Weight (12/20/2012)- 330.6

Last Week's Weight - 257.6

This Week's Weight - 261.2

Total Weight Loss – 69.4

See...I didn't even post my AWESOME weight loss the week before I went to my Mom's house. I lost 3.4 pounds in a single week. My goal is to get back down to that by next week!

*Sigh*

Back to planning and plotting my next week!

You know what...I am done!

I have been struggling with my fill level for a few weeks now.

Today is just RIDICULOUS!

I haven't successfully eaten ANYTHING today.

I drank a nectar shake so at least I have gotten 40 grams of protein today.

I called my surgical center today to see if they could get me in for an unfill.

I have started to realize that I took for granted how easy it was for me to get into see them in the past.

There patient list has grown A LOT since December of 2012!

They were able squeeze me in on Thursday.

Which is good...since I am going to Denver on Friday and was getting to the point that I was pretty sure I wouldn't have been able to eat the ENTIRE time I was gone.

Like I said...I am done with this .2 ccs!

Three words for you....Paleo Breakfast Cookies

OMG...

I LOVE this blog called Gluten Free on a Shoe String

It gives some AMAZING recipies. She even capitalizes on it and has a cookbook.

One of the recipies that I found was the "Paleo Breakfast Cookie"

I am not a paleo person.

I LOVE dairy products....

I enjoy taking advantage of paleo since it is gluten free by default!

Being the total cooking/baking nerd that I am...the ONLY thing I didn't have in my pantry was the coconut flakes. This is fine...While I LOVE coconut it doesn't have all that much nutritional stuff that I worry about. I substituted it for chia seeds. Not flavor equivalent, but nutritionally sound!

Anyways...I have been struggling with finding something easy and tasty to have for breakfast. I don't have the time to make a complex meal before I leave for work. Most of the time I have a HARD time eating anything more textured then soft.

So these cookies...are AMAZING...They are also tasty!

Weigh in Wednesday

Beginning Weight (12/20/2012)- 330.6

May 28th Weight - 261.6

June 25th Weight (Last Week) - 262

This Week's Weight (Yesterday) - 260.8

Total Weight Loss – 69.8

As you might have noticed I have weighed in two weeks in a row. I have decided that while the monthly weigh ins have helped me with the stress I place on myself they are NOT helping with the accountability. I sit around all month saying "Oh, weigh in is XX days a way I can have the ice cream." Then when it is a week away I BUST MY ASS to get caught back up.

So back to weekly we go..Make myself accountable every week..and I just need to get over myself and not worry about the ups and down.

Just for proof. Stupid scale's calendar is off...weird!!