Wednesday, May 29, 2013

22 Weeks is a bit depressing...

Beginning Weight (12/20/2012)- 330.6

Last Week’s Weight – 290.4

Today’s Weight – 292.8

Total Weight Loss – 37.8

Well shit...

My food was pretty good and my calorie burn wasn't horrible...but somehow I still managed to gain a little more than two pounds....F*&$!

I promised that I wouldn't beat myself up over this but it doesn't change my disappointment in myself and everything else that happened in the last week. I have been feeling in a funk and for the last week or so I have been having this feeling that I would gain this week. I tried my best to keep on track but I am pretty sure the mind is a terrible thing when it begins to sew seeds of doubt that can derail EVERYTHING else.

I have people in my life that tell me that weight loss surgery is the "easy way out", that people should have the fortitude to just not eat the shit they shouldn't. They are morons. While I believe that there are easier options then Lap-band none of them are easy. None of them remove the mental aspect and the self doubt.

I pledge to myself that it is never to late to get back on track. I promise myself that I will learn from my mistakes and not punish myself for them. I will know at the end of the day I did the best I could on that particular day and will try for better tomorrow. I will use my band as the tool that it is and know that even with its help I did this myself. I am accountable to me and myself only.

I am going to get myself out of this fun before my family's annual Stay-Cation next week. We have way to much fun stuff planned for next week. Every year we make a calendar...Here is this years....

Next week is going to be a BLAST with lost of walking and hopefully not horrible food choices. My husband is coming on our stay-cation with us for the first time EVER. This is our third year doing this and this is the first time that he got a week of vacation after the kids school year was over. That does mean that we are doing it a bit earlier then normal but it will still be fun.

I get a fill next week but I have one more weigh in before than...hopefully I have a decent loss next week to make up for this week. I will keep you posted!


  1. Put the gain behind and keep your head up!! Good luck!!

  2. Keep your chin up! I know how discouraging it is. I just went through this. We can get through this together!!

  3. don't be depressed. you're doing AMAZING! I hope that i can be down that much by my 22nd week! considering in 8 weeks ive only lost 4lbs--i probably won't make it!